yes i deleted my previous blog (again)
I've made two blogs so far. First one was in WordPress and the second in Bear and I've deleted them all. Amazing. There's a possibility that I might delete this blog (again?) in the future because... I want to? Okay, that isn't a valid reason. If I'm going to be honest, I DO actually have reasons why I deleted my previous blogs. It's an accumulation of different things catalyzed by a mental crisis.
Let's start with WordPress. The first reason is I hate how slow it is to use WordPress from managing it to loading the website. Secondly, the WordPress tag on the header and footer is annoying. But the biggest reason of it all is I ran the blog under my name, legal, real life name. It's pretty self explanatory. I wasn't posting anything personal (it was mainly about math) yet I felt a certain discomfort. It wasn't that big of an issue until I had a mental crisis that led me to take down every social media account I owned. (Instagram, YouTube, Twitter, and the blog).
Between the drought, I momentarily tried Jekyll/Hugo but never ended up hosting it because I didn't want to bother opening VS Code every time I want to blog about something.
Then I made a blog in Bear. It had its short-lived moment of fame, reaching to the top 5 of the Bear Discovery page. It had the number of toasts almost equivalent to the amount of my high school batch. I accidentally gained myself an audience which I enjoyed but that wasn't the point. One day, I found out somebody responded to an immature post that I've written (I deleted it). I'm totally fine with responses but this response was so annoying, it bugged me. It was the kind of response that tells you to stop being broke if you're homeless. (First of all, I am idiot for replying back in the first place). As you may have probably guessed, I decided to delete the blog. Gaining traction was good while it lasted.
In the end, no one really cares about my deleted blog which I think is great. I don't have a lot of regrets deleting the blog. Knowing I managed to get out a lot of posts that were personal is enough for me. My only regret is not archiving the drafts and previous posts but oh well, all that is lost is lost. It's unlikely that I'm making my posts discoverable here any time soon.
As a final note, you might probably be wondering 'why didn't you just change the domain?' and you're right. I don't know why I didn't think of that.