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oh that's so sad

I felt the urgent desire to write this funny story as if I don't have a test tomorrow bruh.

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Few days ago, I sat next to somebody I have always seen passing by but never got to talk to. This time we actually got to talk to each other. Midway to the conversation, the friend pointed at my ears--ah yes my hearing device--shyly, worried I might be uncomfortable by it but I've lived long enough to have become accustomed to it.

"Yeah it's alright" I say.

I tell him they're hearing aids (without bothering to tell him they're actually cochlear implants because I can't be bothered explaining the difference).

Then it was silence.

"So... I was born with congenital deafness" bla bla

Suddenly he goes, "oh that's so sad".

I assure him, there's nothing to be so sad about since I've lived this way for my entire life. But the "oh that's so sad" keeps ongoing. I feel slightly annoyed but in that moment, I think, well he probably doesn't know what to say. Replace my deafness with anything and most people will probably say the same thing, heck I probably wouldn't know what to say either. I try not to think any ill intentions behind it.

I take a blink to organize myself then start talking again. Just when my I opened mouth, "I-"

"oh you've suffered?" He anticipated with his innocent face, probably thinking he's about to hear a dark story about my past or something.

Noooooooooooooooooo

**

Contrary to what they might think, I grew up in a conducive environment, receiving quite the support. Somebody have innocently asked me if I have been bullied before because of what I possess. I'm like nah bro whatchu talking about.

The perception is vastly different when I compare my experience and theirs. I can forgive them, I always get told, I'm the first person they've met with this sort of condition. Great, now you know what to do. Where I'm at, the deaf community are group of minorities they donate and volunteer for. The humanity aspect has become estranged (sort of). But that's not fair, I myself don't know any sign language. It's like someone being born Chinese but know nothing of Mandarin. Putting it simply, the challenges I faced were more internal than external, though not life-damaging. There I can say it's "oh that's so sad" because it went unnoticed. Sad things are the ones unnoticed.