insensitivity / nobody takes me seriously
The beauty of writing down here is that whoever reads this will 'listen' to whatever I have to say.
I'm certain every siblings has their banters. I too had mine but in hindsight, it might just be weird. Since we were little, my sister likes to call me 'ugly' as a joke. At first, it was harmless; I was so young, I don't really care much with looks. Then as the joke kept being repeated, it loses its charm, becoming a nuisance. I'm no pushover alright, I have expressed my disdain towards the joke but it does no good. It did not help that the only consolation from my parents were 'Well don't say that Sis! Of course our son is not ugly!' and the sentence would enter her ear and leave right away; leaving no reflection. Eventually I just gave up.
And so the jokes continued, sprinkled with a hymn of my name followed by the synonyms1. The joke went to the extent that she recorded a song of it as my birthday gift (which I deleted soon as I heard the first line) or she'd joke she'll play the song on my future wedding (do I believe her? no but I won't doubt if it plays a role with my avoidance for a relationship). Worst of it all all I can do is pull up a fake laugh or smile and swallow them whole insofar the joke still remains today though much infrequent.
This is just one example of the many but this pretty much encapsulates my personal frustrations with my family. But what can one do with reality? Mine now is to just accept it like a quirky aspect of a TV show and really just not give a damn about it but darn is it lonely. It's darn frustrating when other people can see you in a better light than your family; even if they say the nicest things, it rubs off as sweet talk to you (I try to convince myself it's true).
Note that the jokes were done in my mother tongue which has more damage than any English phrase would.↩