im not a doctor
My sister's future sure does look bright. She has big dreams and will be a doctor. Naturally, she just captivates the other family members (not that attention is what I am jealous of) mostly due to the fact that she is the first doctor in the family and especially that becoming a doctor is a holy profession. Doctors can save lives1; there's no denying that. It just makes me feel what I am doing have less purpose and less punch. People want to hear about sitting as medical intern, catering patients, about diseases but no one wants to hear about differentiability, you get it, rather puke of it.
But I am not also regretting that I didn't take medicine. I get terrified looking at disturbing images or barely have I felt the inspiration to become a doctor in my youth.
So it's this feeling that palpitates me: If I can't directly save lives through my work, what am I? Am I simply an aimless soul with no meaning to the world?
I was going to write "Doctors save lives" but then I realize not all doctors save lives. Some can, in fact, even fail to save people either due to incompetence, negligence, or tragedy idk.↩